To my family in the event of my demise
I have already documented these things and my boyfriend and my Dad and my lawyer have copies. There is also a copy in the lock box in my house. But due to recent insanity I feel the need to make perfectly clear to everyone who I did not give a copy to my final wishes.
My Financial Powers of Attorney are to be my current boyfriend and my Dad who know that everything I have is to be put aside for my children for their care and for college. All of my life insurance and retirement accounts name my boyfriend and my dad as co-beneficiaries on behalf of my underage children. All of my life insurance and retirement accounts are administered though my employer. I currently have credit insurance on everything so all of my outstanding bills should be paid upon my death. Whatever is in my checking account can be used to handle final expenses as described below:
I request that the following instructions and preferences be honored after my death:
Part 1. Body Donation
I have not made arrangements to donate my whole body. I do not want my whole body donated.
Part 2. Organ Donation
I have not made arrangements for organ donation. I would like my organs donated if they are viable.
Part 3. Cremation Instructions
A. Mortuary or Crematorium
I wish to be cremated.
B. Embalming
I do not wish to be embalmed.
C. Casket
I do not want my body placed in a casket prior to cremation. I do not want any unnecessary funds spent on the disposal of my remains.
D. Pre-cremation Ceremony
No ceremony wanted.
E. Witness to Cremation
No preference.
F. Where and How To Scatter Cremated Remains
I would like my remains scattered to the four winds.
G. Memorial Ceremony
I do not want any kind of funeral ceremony before or after my cremation.
Part 4. Person to Oversee My Wishes
I want my boyfriend to oversee the plans I’ve set out in this document.
Signature
I declare that I have read these instructions and that they accurately reflect my wishes for final arrangements after my death.
Please Let Me Die
I have no purpose for living
But death would be too easy an out
Too good for someone as vile as I
So I must suffer through
Living in the purgatory created just for me
For I was not made to be loved or to love
I was made to die, I was made to cry
I was made to crumble beneath the tragic life I was handed
I die with a clear conscience, I never lied
I cry for my two beautiful, innocent children
But they would do better without me
Everyone would be better served if I did not exist
I am not capable of living in the world
I cannot conform to the evils of this society
I cannot accept the cruelties that are the rule
Instead of the exception – as it should be
Since I am the virus…
Then it is I that should be eliminated
I go gladly, willingly… with a smile on my fractured face
Please let me die
Internalized Oppression
External oppression is the unjust exercise of authority and power by one group over another. It includes imposing one group’s belief system, values and life ways over another group.
External oppression becomes internalized oppression when we come to believe and act as if the oppressor’s beliefs system, values, and life way is reality.
“Self-hate” and “internalized racism” are other ways of saying internalized oppression.
The result of internalized oppression is shame and the disowning of our individual and cultural reality. Without internalized oppression, we would not now have previously unseen levels of violence, especially against women and children.
Drunkenness, disrespect for God, fighting, cussing and disrespect for women were “foreign” behaviors modeled by the Cavalry, and eventually worked their way into our communities through internalized oppression.
Internalized oppression means the oppressor doesn’t have to exert any more pressure, because we now do it to ourselves and each other. Divide and conquer works.
We resist internalized oppression by relearning how to live respectfully and harmoniously together — without violence.
This explains a lot as to why we sometimes feel tortured by our own choices, doesn’t it?